Mid-afternoon snack: yogurt
Dinner: romaine and spinach salad with grape tomatoes, feta cheese, and honey mustard vinaigrette
Ever have one of those days when you just feel defeated? I think that's what's happening to me, except it's a whole semester. Today I have let myself get completely discouraged by everything going on. I feel like my life isn't life anymore. All I do is school. Seriously. It's not even a part of my life anymore.. It is my life. And I hate that. Particularly because I don't like school.
It. Feels. Never. Ending.
And I know that it will end, so then I just feel silly. It's just gotten a little overwhelming today. It would probably help if I was good at crying, but it takes months of buildup for me to have a good cry and I guess I just haven't gotten there yet. Things are bad when you want to cry and can't.
Although it'd probably be worse if I wanted to stop crying and couldn't.
Anyways, whatever. Tomorrow is a new day. Can't stop moving forward just because moving forward currently doesn't involve anything I enjoy. I know once this is over I will be able to do all the things I've wanted to do my entire life (be a better wife, have a baby [or two], take care of a beautiful home that I love, and spend time with the people who matter the most to me). I hate that for the next 1 1/2 years my friends and family who I love more than life will continue to be put on hold, but I know that when it's all said and done... This is what's best for everybody. Just having a hard time with that patience thing.
I promise... I'm not a robot. I just happen to look and quack like one for the time being.
Dear God, please help me. Amen.