Round 3 of Biggest Loser is over and I need a break. All this back and forth isn't good for me and I need to just
not think about dieting for two seconds. I know this is a lifetime change I need to make, but girl's breaking down over here. I keep putting ridiculous amounts of pressure on myself to be good and then inevitably when I'm not I feel guilty and it just bums me out. I don't want to feel guilty right now. I just want to peacefully live with my food choices and not have to deal with the anxiety.
So, folks, I'm off the wagon. I'm sorry. I know I'm disappointing some of you, but really I just need some time to reevaluate what I want out of this. Plus, I think if I stop focusing on it then when Biggest Loser 4 starts I can have a solid start date, as opposed to this wishy-washy back and forth business I've been doing. I can recommit myself to the diet once again and start off right.
I feel better already.
One tip of advice is stop looking at it as a "diet" or you will fail or stress yourself out. I stopped looking at what I am doing as a diet a long time ago. I am changing my life and my decisions. It's a life style change. I choose to put good healthy foods in my body, I choose to drink 80 oz or more of water a day, I choose to work out 5-6 days a week because my body craves it now, making these healthy and good decisions makes my body and mood feel a ton better. Your a work in progress, change isn't going to happen over night. Just don't ever give up on yourself and keep working at it everyday, it gets easier trust me! I am 13 months into this journey and everything has become almost 2nd nature, I still have my bad days or days of temptation but I deal with it and move on. I refuse to give up on myself ever again. Sometimes you do need a little break to refocus yourself, I had to do that last week with hiding my scale and focus on my eating and working out. Wish you nothing but the best!
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