- I 100% firmly and whole-heartedly believe that Joshua Ledet on American Idol is 1,000 times over-rated. The judges give him standing o's every single time (or just about) and I literally have to fast forward his performances because they make me cringe. Just IMO. I realize I'm not in any place to judge. But it drives me nuts when they drool over him every week. Just sayin'...
- My food cravings are out of this world. Well, I guess I should say... My inability to not give in to my food cravings is out of this world. I have made horrible choices for the past week. I am struggling. I've decided that once we figure out our next move (as far as who will be working where and when), I am seeking out therapy for my addiction to food. I will never make any more change/progress unless I work out whatever is imbalanced in my brain. I can never have enough food. This is not normal.
- I was not planning on revealing that in this post. Guess it needed to come out. This is something I have been thinking about for the past year, and I am very serious about it. I am not meaning to sound frivolous or exaggerated. There is something wrong with the way I think/feel about food, and the way I use food in my life. I don't know how to fix it and I need help. End of story.
- I really want to go on vacation. Now.
- I can't decide how to feel lately. One moment I'm incredibly relieved and happy that school is officially over (I took my last final yesterday and now all I have left is graduation). The next moment I am so pissed off at every little thing I don't know whether to scream or punch something (or maybe both?).
- I have been having so much trouble getting sleep lately because I cannot turn my brain off.
- Did I lock the doors?
- I need to make a list of questions to ask at my interview on Friday.
- Why didn't I get the job where I've been interning at since January?
- I wonder what it will be like to get a paycheck.
- Will I ever be getting a paycheck?
- Graduation. Ican'twait.
- I wonder how many people will come to our graduation party.
- I have to pee.
- Why didn't I get the job?
- Moving to a different town if I get a job away from here.
- Selling our house.
- Fixing up our house so it's ready to sell.
- I don't want to sell our house or move.
- I'm not ready for these decisions.
- What questions will I ask on Friday? Should I write them down now so I won't forget?
- OB/GYN appointment Friday morning... Hope she doesn't tell me I'm pregnant!
- But secretly kind of want her to.
- Hope all the cysts are off of my ovaries.
- I need to get new birth control.
- Braylen really wants a baby. Should we have one now?
- I need to lose 100 lbs still.
- I need to eat.
- I need to lose 100 lbs still.
- I will never lose the weight.
- Why didn't I get the job?
I need help.
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